“Normally a quote goes here but fuck it! I’m not in the mood!” ~ ME!
Out of the blue, my mood has gone from okay to frickin horrible! I’ve been curled up in the fetal position on my bed for about an hour cursing the fact that I was conscious. Just when I felt like I was falling asleep, I had to pull myself up because I had to pee! God I hate that.
I’m here drinking cold coffee because I’m too lazy and irritable to put it in the microwave for 30 seconds.
I can’t remember if I have ever typed away when I was in a mood as foul as this. Maybe I have….I don’t remember, and maybe I should have before this. It helps to vent even though I have nothing to vent about ……or do I??
I’m pissed off for the sake of being pissed off. There is no positive thinking or whatever the hell else I’ve been preaching. Sometimes NOTHING works or helps and sometimes I just want to throw something through the fucking wall.
This is when I believe my diagnosis of bipolarism is real. Many days I think the pill dispensing doctors don’t know shit and tend to think I’m just like the rest of the population trying to get through a crappy day, in a miserable world. Maybe I’ll have days like this for the rest of my life and maybe there is no drug that will do any good.
I can’t make heads or tails of this world when I feel like this…. all the books I’ve read, all the views I have seem to disappear. Are we supposed to be fixing this planet or destroying it? Which works better in the scheme of reincarnation? A planet with a whole lot of bullshit and pain I suppose. I’m all over the place right now, I know!
Something struck a sensitive nerve with me yesterday which I think contributed to my mood this morning. Capitalism and free enterprise…. holy shit …do I really want to get started on this?? The thing that is single-handedly devouring every resource on the planet faster than it can be replaced. All for the sake of money….something that is a figment of our imagination. Money isn’t real, it’s something we humans have created. It’s meaningless….100% meaningless but it’s what drives everything! It’s disgusting.
You would think being born on a planet would give you some kind of birthright, like ….oh I dunno …..free health care! Free water! Being free to live in a damned field if I want without being told I’m trespassing or violating some dumb-ass law by blinking sideways! No….it’s never actually happened but this is what goes through my head when I am in a mood.
I feel like I woke up in a world created by the dumbest people, who picked the worst ideas, and then only half-assed followed through on them. Then after a few centuries of decay and stupidity, we end up here in the early 21st century wondering why nothing is working. Ugh…..I’m soooo not doing a thing today. Maybe you all shouldn’t either til the world wakes the hell up!
Signed,
Bitter!
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Tags: bad day, bitter, capitalism, do nothing, fetal position, free enterprise, frustration, hell to pay, horrible, mood, rant, ranting, world, world problems, WTF
Damn, you and I think alike! I feel the same way much of the time, guess thats why I get angry a lot. Its ok to be angry, you have to let it out. My hubby tells me I have to stop being so angry and let shit go, but some days its really hard to do! I hope the day gets better for you. *hugs*
Thanks Jeanie! It’s always a comfort knowing you’re not the only one. Normally, I don’t write when I’m in that kind of mood as everything usually gets deleted! haha! It felt better once I got it out of my system which I think is what we all need to do.
Thank you, I needed that! Your mood is a mood very much like mine most of the time. How can one make heads and tails of this world? Makes no sense. I have been up half the night crocheting, thinking and growing more bitter towards my past and those who were part of it. We all hold each other accountable and if that is so, then our moods are comprised of the moods of others as well. My mood sure changes when I am greeted by a grump! Yeah, I am blaming my bad moods on others who imparted their insecurities on me. thanks…That feels much better!
Hey Darrin – Have you thought of going into politics!! I encourage you to vent more often, because you are basically saying what the rest of us are thinking … the difference is you have the balls to say it and not give a rat’s behind what anybody thinks! You go my brotha!! For what it’s worth, I totally enjoyed your message and not to make you angry, but it made me laugh. Maybe down the road you can re-read what you wrote and laugh too! I hope so Darrin, because the world needs more straightforward no bullshit people like you!! Keep fighting the good fight kiddo!!
Kathy, My favorite definition of politics… “Politics, n: Poly “many” + tics “blood-sucking parasites” ~ Larry Hardiman
Ya know…I read this later the same day and I DID laugh! HA! After I vented, I was on the fence about publishing it but my better half said I defiantly should post it… It felt good to do so and I’m thinking it won’t be my last rant.
Money is a tool that makes it easier to exchange wealth. Because its use as a convenient exchange medium has been so successful, we can say that money effectively represents real wealth. Wealth is any product of human labor or invention; anything from a lightbulb to a car to a computer.
I’m not quite understanding what you mean when you say money is just made up. Wealth isn’t made up, and money is just a tool that makes exchanging wealth easier, so we don’t have to barter.
Sure, money is a tool which represents wealth…..but material wealth is a human made concept. Man created money. Man created the barter system. Man created wealth.
@Darrin :
How does material wealth being manmade in any way invalidate its reality or legitimacy? It is thanks to man-made wealth, the barter system, and money, that we are even having this discussion. Without them, we couldn’t have invented much of anything, especially not the internet.
@ ShellsOnTheFloor: This is a big question with an equally big answer. I’ll direct you to this website, http://www.thevenusproject.com/ Some would say it’s fantasy but I feel if we as a people want it, then we can surely attain it. I prefer to think we can than to stay in my own little box. ….and I am talking about me personally, I’m not saying you are in your own box
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