“Each of us has much more hidden inside us than we have had a chance to explore. Unless we create an environment that enables us to discover the limits of our potential, we will never know what we have inside of us.” ~ Muhammad Yunus
All through my life I had a habit of starting things that would never be completed. Every time something became difficult or did not hold up to my expectations, I quit. Projects barely got started before I gave up on them. Who knows how many fantastic opportunities I missed out on.
Since the creation of this website, I have realized the change I have gone through. It’s only been up for about 7 months and I believe the old me would have abandoned it weeks, if not months ago. But I didn’t! I genuinely and very unexpectedly enjoy the hell out of it, even if no one reads it. The rewards have been surprising and I continue to learn about myself when I write.
The feeling of accomplishment is a new feeling for me to feel this often. It has opened my eyes to other possibilities in which I can experiment. I don’t mean just with this site, but also in other areas. This feeling is now fueling my ambition and curiosity to try more things, to take more risks, and run with them.
I’m sure some people will read this and think, duh! I know there are people with this natural instinct to not give up hope and not quit. This way of thinking has always felt so alien to me except. I think my bipolar disorder has been the colossal mountain to climb over, and still is some days. If only I knew about my condition years ago!
So that old cliché about never giving up hope isn’t that cliché anymore. It is real to me now. It only took 40 years for me to figure that out! Better late than never! (crap, another cliché).
I don’t have regrets about what I never finished – I would be wasting too much time and energy thinking about mistakes.
I’m not sure what this whole post could mean to someone reading it, but it helps me in crazy ways by just getting it out of my head and writing it out. Sometimes these things aren’t real until I type it out. I know, weird.