Saved by Slow Death

“At any moment, you have a choice, that either leads you closer to your spirit or further away from it.” ~ Thich Nhat Hanh

My mom always says, “If it’s something you can’t tell your mother about, you probably shouldn’t be doing it.” I think she is right, I think we all have an inner knowing of what is right or wrong without anyone having to tell us.

Being bipolar throws a wrench into that way of thinking – for me it meant knowing this difference between acceptable or unacceptable behavior but not giving a damn which one I chose. I didn’t worry myself with consequences or what people thought about me, I just did things on a whim and said, “whatever.” Continue reading

“Doctors are men who prescribe medicines of which they know little, to cure diseases of which they know less, in human beings of whom they know nothing.” ~ Voltaire

Here I go again… I am in asshole mode! I have repeatedly tried to write for the past three friggin weeks and have deleted what I write every time. My mood has been really fragile ever since the first week of April.  Bipolar disorder is a bitch!

I write something down, then feel it sounds stupid, then I get frustrated, then I get angry, then I hit delete. I’m hoping I can at least get this out so I can explain where my head is….or is not. Continue reading