“If you say that getting the money is the most important thing, you’ll spend your life completely wasting your time. You’ll be doing things you don’t like doing in order to go on living, that is to go on doing thing you don’t like doing, which is stupid.” -Alan Watts
I had my first counseling session yesterday and the hour was spent with me babbling on and on, going off on a thousand tangents, until I couldn’t remember why I was talking.
Eventually, it became obvious that I feel bad about not contributing at home in the way I wish I did. The amount of money I bring into the household is almost nonexistent. To make up for the lack of income I clean the house, including laundry, the windows, I cut the grass and feed the dog, cat, fish and birds. (more…)
“Happiness does not depend upon who you are or what you have. It depends solely upon what you think.” –Dale Carnegie
Going back to work has been a real source of anxiety for me because it’s been a long time since I’ve been employed. I never get called for an interview because I’ve burned too many bridges due to depression. I’ve made stupid mistakes and it’s led to a really shitty resume.
This has come back to make me even more depressed but I can’t go back and change history. I can’t go back to shake myself and say, “You’re depressed! Get help!” The damage is done. (more…)
“No act of kindness is too small. The gift of kindness may start as a small ripple that over time can turn into a tidal wave affecting the lives of many.” -Kevin Heath
Any act of kindness usually has a much wider effect than many people think. Kindness shown to one person spreads out and infects others, then those infected with good feelings infect others near them and so on…
You would probably be amazed if you could follow any act of kindness from one person to the next as it spread through that first person and on to a couple more. It can move through an entire building until it spills out into the street… or through the airwaves via your phone. One genuine act ripples out, infects everyone and inspires them to be kind to the next person. (more…)
I’m not reading it to transform my fear of death because I already lost my fear of death over six years ago when I was near death myself. Sometimes that’s all it takes and I can’t explain why I lost my fear, but I did. The feelings I had while being so sick are very hard to explain but in that time I somehow realized this physical life is definitely not all there is.
First of all, I do not connect the afterlife with religion and I think that’s a big key in thinking about it the way I do. I think about the afterlife as part of the natural cycle of life; it’s as natural as a caterpillar turning into a butterfly. I don’t think of the afterlife as “supernatural,” just natural. (more…)
Here is another story I really wanted to share because it makes you take a step back and wonder if this is how you’ve been living your life.
I did check and yes, this story is very true. It did happen over a year ago but this was the first I have heard of it so it’s likely many others haven’t heard of it yet either.
“A man sat at a metro station in Washington DC and started to play the violin; it was a cold January morning. He played six Bach pieces for about 45 minutes. During that time, since it was rush hour, it was calculated that 1,100 people went through the station, most of them on their way to work. (more…)
“Movement is a medicine for creating change in a person’s physical, emotional, and mental states.” -Carol Welch
I have heard how exercise is supposed to help with depression, and also my neuropathy, but I’ve been very hesitant to try because I really don’t want to feel the pain that the neuropathy causes. If you don’t know, it causes an intense burning sensation in my hands and feet. Sometimes it feels like a thousand needles but either way, it sucks and exercise is usually not on my to-do list.
Aside from the pain, I am often moody and when I think about exercise I get even moodier! I shoot down the idea of exercise before I even try because it feels like an impossible hill to climb. There are also a lot of exercises that would hurt, like running or even light weights. The pressure and impact they cause on the feet and hands cause pain!
I think I have a good form of exercise in the shape on an elliptical trainer. I say it’s good because there is no impact on my sensitive body parts; my feet stay on the little platforms and never impact anything as if I were running or even walking. Yes, even too much walking can cause pain unless I’m liquored up! (more…)
“Whether you think you can, or you think you can’t–you’re right.” -Henry Ford
Are you still using drugs? You don’t have to be. Do you think your life is too far out of control to turn it around? You’re wrong. Do you think you can’t do it? Oh, but you can! You are so much more than you think you are and you’re capable of so much more than you realize!. (more…)
Where do I go from here? I feel like I’ve said what I wanted to say and as time goes on, I’m finding it more and more difficult to say anything else.
I feel like I forgot Saved by Slow Death in a box somewhere along my path, about a mile or so behind me and now I can’t find it and I’m not sure I want to go back and look for it. (more…)
Howdy people, I wanted to share this story with ya. Ya know, I swear I posted this once before but I’ll be damned if I can find it on my own site! LOL Then again, during a recent bout of depression, I may have deleted the post. Done it before…
Maybe you’ve read it somewhere before but it always helps to be reminded of the moral of this story. Hope you enjoy it.
The Story of the Mexican Fisherman
An American businessman was standing at the pier of a small coastal Mexican village when a small boat with just one fisherman docked. Inside the small boat were several large Yellowfin tuna. The American complimented the Mexican on the quality of his fish. (more…)
“Until one has loved an animal, a part of one’s soul remains unawakened.“ ~Anatole France
I was watching TV and there was a show about animals helping veterans deal with the many problems they face when they return home. They help them cope with emotional trauma among other things and I immediately began to think how my dog and cat both seem to know when I’m feeling bad, suffering from my depression or just having problems with my anxiety. (more…)
I had my first counseling session yesterday and the hour was spent with me babbling on and on, going off on a thousand tangents, until I couldn’t remember why I was talking.
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