“The cruelest lies are often told in silence.” ~ Adlai Stevenson
In my last post about how I quit crystal meth, I left you with a few questions I asked myself in order to get my thoughts organized. As I look back it seems the questions helped me kick meth with a practical type of logic. But, I am a Virgo and if you believe in astrology this is probably the only way I could have done it. Continue reading
“Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.” ~Mahatma Gandhi
I received an email yesterday from a reader who asked me how I quit crystal meth. It made me wonder, have I never mentioned that? I can be very scatter-brained so it’s very likely I haven’t which is shocking, yet not shocking hence the scatter-brain.
There is no simple answer to the question and it’s much too long to write up in one day, so I’ll answer this in a series, today being part one.
Knowing you have the problem is step one, I know – how very cliché. But true! Continue reading
“There are some things one remembers even though they may never have happened.” ~ Harold Pinter, Old Times
Since I have been writing about my crystal meth experiences one thing has remained constant. I am not sure, nor have I ever been sure, of what was real and what was not real. I have had to accept the things I remember so vividly …may never have happened. Continue reading
“All we know is still infinitely less than all that remains unknown.” ~William Harvey
This is my follow up to, Meth and Demonic Forces, where I had just learned of the theory that people with compromised and/or altered states of awareness can be influenced by unseen and dark forces.
Take into mind the quote at the top of the page and you have to know mankind understands very, very, little about the Universe and whatever else there is beyond that. Beyond the Universe how? Maybe more dimensions or another Universe? Maybe something beyond our level of comprehension? Continue reading
“There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, Than are dreamt of in your philosophy.” ~William Shakespeare, “Hamlet”
Twenty four hours ago I was completely unaware of the idea I am presenting here today. The idea of demons preying on people who have altered their state of mind and/or who are susceptible to these negative influences because of using meth.
Before going further, and as simply as possible, I want to define three words as I understand them from the sources I have read. Continue reading
“Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It’s a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life.” ~ Carrie Fisher
I recently began seeing a new case worker and doctor because I have no insurance. The case worker stated that she tends to question when a person is diagnosed with bipolar disorder because it seems to happen too often. Then I began to question if I am bipolar at all. Continue reading
“I think hard drugs are disgusting. But I must say, I think marijuana is pretty lightweight.”~ Linda McCartney
This blog began because of my former ill-use of meth, among other things, and some may think I should put marijuana in the same category (stops to laugh) but that is absurd, I tell you, absurd! It’s soooo not the same thing at all.
In my humble opinion, pot is absolutely not the “Gateway Drug” that leads to hardcore meth or heroin. <smirk & laugh out loud> It’s like saying, drinking milk as a child led me to drinking Baileys in my eggnog. As a person with real drug experience, that’s how I see it. Continue reading
“Things do not change; we change.” ~ Henry David Thoreau
Turkey Day meant turkey, being dragged by my ear to a very long, dull day with those old ones, otherwise known as parents, grandparents, uncles and aunts etc, etc… (they were all old to me then)
See above.
Nothing has changed except my growing disdain toward my Dad’s desire to kill deer.
Wait….my concept of time has changed and this day seems MUCH longer! Continue reading
“Those who were pre-ordained to have no good karma at all – gazing into the lamp of emotional attachment, they are burnt, like moths in a flame.” ~ Sri Guru Granth Sahib
I feel my joke of a relationship with Simon was little more than that, I was a live-in house slave. Continue reading
“When a sinister person means to be your enemy, they always start by trying to become your friend.” ~ William Blake
This week has been awful, my anxiety has sky-rocketed over disturbing thoughts I have been having about my past meth use. So here I am, about to get a little more out of my system so I can try to just let it go.
I have been learning more about the gay drug culture and it has been totally freaking me out. My current boyfriend has been telling me stories about his own experiences with drugs and those who are deeply rooted in that lifestyle. As I learn about his history, I can’t help but reevaluate my own memories and it has made them even more disturbing. Continue reading
