“Reality is merely an illusion, although a very persistent one” ~ Albert Einstein
Do you ever just sit around on a Sunday, like I’m doing today, and just wonder, what if?
Today I woke up with no energy at all and could barely keep my cup of coffee balanced in my hand. I just felt exhausted. This exhausted feeling brings back memories of my former meth use because I would go so long without sleep and feel terrible when the sun came up.
So naturally, when the memories come back so does my anxiety. It’s not a great way to begin my day, that’s for sure. While I sit there trying to push the meth memories back and let good ones come to the front of my mind I wonder, what if it’s just that easy?
What if I am making far too big a deal over it all? What if I just turn my attention toward those stupid squirrels chasing each other across the yard and laugh at them? What if I’m making my own hell here on Earth?
What if I died and realized I was still conscious, then realized I beat myself up for years when I could have just been happy the whole time?! I would be pissed, that’s what!
What if this Earth, this physical world we call reality isn’t real at all? That’s what physicists are telling us all the time. What if it’s all, for lack of a better word, a big game or a test? Maybe all my worrying is making me lose the game or fail the test. What if every religion on the face of the Earth has it all wrong and no one has got it right yet?
“A wise man, recognizing that the world is but an illusion, does not act as if it is real, so he escapes the suffering.” ~ Buddha
If the Earth and the rest of the physical world is really an illusion then what exactly IS real? That’s the big question. And if it’s not real then why do we take it so seriously? Is it as stupid as letting a video game you aren’t good at ruin your day because you’re on a low level you can’t get off of? Maybe…
What if death is like reaching the last level of the game? What if you decide to play another game? Won’t your experience from the first game help you out in a different game? What if it’s our reaction to the game that counts because that’s what we can control?
Once, someone told me I think too much, maybe he was right and maybe he wasn’t. I like to think and sometimes I wonder if I’m thinking about what everyone else thinks about….
There really wasn’t much of a point to this and sometimes I just need to type it out. I’m not even sure I care if anyone even reads it or not because it might be just a game!
This is my Sunday …how is yours?